The start of 2009 marks the imminent end of my December holidays. 2008 had been awful, constantly facing the harsh realities of life. However, I must say the semester break was great despite some occasional mood swings. Met up with the gang rather often and had lots of activities going on; basketball, suppers, countdowns, marathon and some occasional guys' talk. No doubt these activities had left some serious holes on my pockets but it has been 2 years plus since I led such carefree lives. I've had fun.
Once again as the new semester starts, life would be back to studying and mugging. As usual, I hope to clear all my modules and plan to work part-time during that long break after the semester. I guess my life is pretty much mapped out this year.
I thought my time table was quite good this semester, where I wouldn't have to end up reaching home late everyday. Hopefully, with this incentives, I am self-displicined enough to spend some free time on exercising. Losing weight is one goal that I hope to achieve this year. Ideally back to my ORD weight. haha.
I hope 2009 will be happier.
" I had tried my best for everything, but that was the biggest failure of my life. "
Saturday, January 03, 2009
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Remaining days of 2008
My posting has been stagnant ever since I decided to stop blogging at the start of the year. Recently, with the semester break after the exams, I had lot of spare time and I remembered weeks ago, I was browsing at my posts made over these past few years. Time really files; and if not for this blog, I may not even remember the year those events took place.
In 2008, I have experienced a new chapter of my life as I completed my National Service and began my studies at NTU. Personally, I felt serving NS is like under a shelter when there is a rain. All we have to do is to perform the tasks assigned properly and life would go on. It is after ORD where we have to step out of this shelter and prepare ourselves for our future, fighting against the rain to reach our destination.
I found a part-time job soon after ORD and was working as a lab techinican in Tuas. This was also the period where I tried out the stock market. The lessons learnt were harsh and inexperience has cost me paper losses which I hope would decrease when the economy improves. As the world economy is currently experiencing a recession, the sight of a recovery seems far.The working experiences at Tuas was enriching, giving me a peek at the potential environment I may be under when I enter the labour force. In August, I started school in NTU, taking a 3 year degree course in Environmental Engineering.
I was elated when I was accepted a position in the local university. I started school, aspiring to strive for my best in this course. However, as the time passes and the workload increases, life becomes a struggle and my first semester has been demoralising for I have never studied and revised harder. Yet, at the end of the day, all that amount of effort put in are not for the hopes of achieving fantastic grades, but just plainly survival.
This kind of lifestyle has affected my health to. Gradually, I put on weight since I hardly exercise given the hectic lifestyle I am in. So, I hope in 2009, I can be more self-displicined to set aside some spare time for exercising as I am so afraid of "achieving new heights" on the weighting scale. Haha.
There is something else in me that didn't went well too. I started the year with lots of hopes and dreams. Now, I learnt not to hope.Some were achieved with my efforts while the others have not been so smooth-sailing. Sometimes, efforts does not constitute to success no matter the amount put in. It has been very disappointing. Its hard to accept and believe how things can change into. I have tried, and I never cared so much, not even on myself.
The year is coming to an end. I hope everyone will enjoy themselves with the remaining span of holidays left. Annyeong hi kaseyo!
I learnt not to hope.
In 2008, I have experienced a new chapter of my life as I completed my National Service and began my studies at NTU. Personally, I felt serving NS is like under a shelter when there is a rain. All we have to do is to perform the tasks assigned properly and life would go on. It is after ORD where we have to step out of this shelter and prepare ourselves for our future, fighting against the rain to reach our destination.
I found a part-time job soon after ORD and was working as a lab techinican in Tuas. This was also the period where I tried out the stock market. The lessons learnt were harsh and inexperience has cost me paper losses which I hope would decrease when the economy improves. As the world economy is currently experiencing a recession, the sight of a recovery seems far.The working experiences at Tuas was enriching, giving me a peek at the potential environment I may be under when I enter the labour force. In August, I started school in NTU, taking a 3 year degree course in Environmental Engineering.
I was elated when I was accepted a position in the local university. I started school, aspiring to strive for my best in this course. However, as the time passes and the workload increases, life becomes a struggle and my first semester has been demoralising for I have never studied and revised harder. Yet, at the end of the day, all that amount of effort put in are not for the hopes of achieving fantastic grades, but just plainly survival.
This kind of lifestyle has affected my health to. Gradually, I put on weight since I hardly exercise given the hectic lifestyle I am in. So, I hope in 2009, I can be more self-displicined to set aside some spare time for exercising as I am so afraid of "achieving new heights" on the weighting scale. Haha.
There is something else in me that didn't went well too. I started the year with lots of hopes and dreams. Now, I learnt not to hope.Some were achieved with my efforts while the others have not been so smooth-sailing. Sometimes, efforts does not constitute to success no matter the amount put in. It has been very disappointing. Its hard to accept and believe how things can change into. I have tried, and I never cared so much, not even on myself.
The year is coming to an end. I hope everyone will enjoy themselves with the remaining span of holidays left. Annyeong hi kaseyo!
I learnt not to hope.
Sunday, January 06, 2008
2008
It's been a long long.. "did i say long ?" long time since I last blogged. To my dearest fans out there, ( I doubt there's any) I am back! Do let me know if anyone of you happened to chance upon this blog again! To anyone reading this, I would like to wish you a Happy New Year!
Whether this post marks the revival of this blog; I am not sure. I was shocked when I saw my last post lated back to 1 May 2007! There's so much to be said for what has happened over these past 7 months but overall, I would like to say, 2007 has been a fruitful year for me. I am glad to accomplished some of the goals I have set in 2007 although its been 2 years since I told myself to pick up guitar and there has been little success so far. Perhaps, I am just suited to ktv singing sessions with my friends. sigh..
Goals such as passing my IPPT and completing a 42km full marathon has been especially rewarding. I never knew I can managed such a distance in my life! However, with pride comes the pain. I could barely walk for a week or two after that run. However, I have just resumed my runnings again recently as I bid to prevent myself from losing my fitness. The past one year was mainly spent in the army. I must say the army experience have not been pleasant but I have gain alot and learnt alot through the process of working under a management. Being under a logistic unit, the quality of service counts alot. I am constantly working wth strangers and this is where communication counts. I have become more outspoken and more confident in myself. As quoted from Gen. Robert H. Barrow, USMC "Amateurs talk about tactics, but professionals study logistics." I guess generally, people don't realise the importance of logistics until they work under it.
As for the recent months, I have been reading up on business times and investments. I used to shun the finance and business sections of the newspapers in the past; but they have interested me greatly. The economy can be affected by so many factors and we, the people are the ones suffering or benefitting from it. Pardon me for my layman terms for my ideas are still generally vague. Reading up is very important, for I do not want to live a life of a frog in a well. As i look at the dates, I could not help but smile as my ORD gets closer.
This chapter of my life is closing soon and I am looking forward to August where I am back to school again! As for ORD plans, I plan to get a part-time job till the school term starts. Holidays first? That would have to see how my friends' schedules are.
Whether this post marks the revival of this blog; I am not sure. I was shocked when I saw my last post lated back to 1 May 2007! There's so much to be said for what has happened over these past 7 months but overall, I would like to say, 2007 has been a fruitful year for me. I am glad to accomplished some of the goals I have set in 2007 although its been 2 years since I told myself to pick up guitar and there has been little success so far. Perhaps, I am just suited to ktv singing sessions with my friends. sigh..
Goals such as passing my IPPT and completing a 42km full marathon has been especially rewarding. I never knew I can managed such a distance in my life! However, with pride comes the pain. I could barely walk for a week or two after that run. However, I have just resumed my runnings again recently as I bid to prevent myself from losing my fitness. The past one year was mainly spent in the army. I must say the army experience have not been pleasant but I have gain alot and learnt alot through the process of working under a management. Being under a logistic unit, the quality of service counts alot. I am constantly working wth strangers and this is where communication counts. I have become more outspoken and more confident in myself. As quoted from Gen. Robert H. Barrow, USMC "Amateurs talk about tactics, but professionals study logistics." I guess generally, people don't realise the importance of logistics until they work under it.
As for the recent months, I have been reading up on business times and investments. I used to shun the finance and business sections of the newspapers in the past; but they have interested me greatly. The economy can be affected by so many factors and we, the people are the ones suffering or benefitting from it. Pardon me for my layman terms for my ideas are still generally vague. Reading up is very important, for I do not want to live a life of a frog in a well. As i look at the dates, I could not help but smile as my ORD gets closer.
This chapter of my life is closing soon and I am looking forward to August where I am back to school again! As for ORD plans, I plan to get a part-time job till the school term starts. Holidays first? That would have to see how my friends' schedules are.
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
May
I noticed that its been getting warmer over the past few days especially in the afternoons. I like sunny weathers. It lightens up my mood.
The latest news requiring my unit was that there would be a change of management but we would stay where we are, doing the same things as before. This implies that I would still be on 8-6, getting to stay out. This is certainly good news for us. No one likes to stay in if given a choice.
Life has been stale recently. Some of my friends are busy with their examinations while the others with their personal life. As for me, I am still serving my army, driving even more regularly then i would preferred. I am aiming to get my 7000km mileage as soon as possible. My tuition slots have been more packed recently due to the start of the Mid-Year Examinations. On some days after work, I would go straight for tuition before returning home in the night. This certainly has made my days more busy but i realised there is still plenty of free time for me to spend. Most of the time, I had to spend it alone as i couldn't find any company.
Despite the fact that i do meet up with my friends on a regular basis, I am not feeling very happy. No doubt, i enjoy their company, with the chance to be myself and have fun, updating each other about our life. However, once the outing ended, the happiness gradually diminishes and i am back to my lonely self.
Perhaps during the secondary school days, we get to meet each other everyday, so much so that it has become part of life. As the secondary school days ended and each of us proceed to higher studies, we meet new friends and due to a clash of times, there were fewer opportunities to meet up. Having said that, I still find my secondary school friends much more closer than my poly ones. I noticed that we used to quarrel and argue much over things in the past. But when it come to now, I find that everyone is just enjoying themselves when there is a outing.
If I have to talk about myself, I have a small family. With me being the only child and my parents having quite a bit of age now, we don't really speak to each other much perhaps due to the generation gap. Unlike many families, I do not have any family day and I seldom get to meet up with my relatives. Whenever I have problems, I could only share with my friends. So much so that, it becomes frustrating, perhaps the fact that i don't even have any family support. Whenever I am free at home, there is nothing for me to do. I do not play or own computer or console games. In short, I just have nothing to do. So much so , that I have to get of out of my home. Sometimes, aimlessly walking around the streets or go for running. I can only do it alone. Everything.
I just hope to be busy, with things to do. Yet, i am constantly searching for it. I don't feel loved or cared. Its not a good feeling.
The latest news requiring my unit was that there would be a change of management but we would stay where we are, doing the same things as before. This implies that I would still be on 8-6, getting to stay out. This is certainly good news for us. No one likes to stay in if given a choice.
Life has been stale recently. Some of my friends are busy with their examinations while the others with their personal life. As for me, I am still serving my army, driving even more regularly then i would preferred. I am aiming to get my 7000km mileage as soon as possible. My tuition slots have been more packed recently due to the start of the Mid-Year Examinations. On some days after work, I would go straight for tuition before returning home in the night. This certainly has made my days more busy but i realised there is still plenty of free time for me to spend. Most of the time, I had to spend it alone as i couldn't find any company.
Despite the fact that i do meet up with my friends on a regular basis, I am not feeling very happy. No doubt, i enjoy their company, with the chance to be myself and have fun, updating each other about our life. However, once the outing ended, the happiness gradually diminishes and i am back to my lonely self.
Perhaps during the secondary school days, we get to meet each other everyday, so much so that it has become part of life. As the secondary school days ended and each of us proceed to higher studies, we meet new friends and due to a clash of times, there were fewer opportunities to meet up. Having said that, I still find my secondary school friends much more closer than my poly ones. I noticed that we used to quarrel and argue much over things in the past. But when it come to now, I find that everyone is just enjoying themselves when there is a outing.
If I have to talk about myself, I have a small family. With me being the only child and my parents having quite a bit of age now, we don't really speak to each other much perhaps due to the generation gap. Unlike many families, I do not have any family day and I seldom get to meet up with my relatives. Whenever I have problems, I could only share with my friends. So much so that, it becomes frustrating, perhaps the fact that i don't even have any family support. Whenever I am free at home, there is nothing for me to do. I do not play or own computer or console games. In short, I just have nothing to do. So much so , that I have to get of out of my home. Sometimes, aimlessly walking around the streets or go for running. I can only do it alone. Everything.
I just hope to be busy, with things to do. Yet, i am constantly searching for it. I don't feel loved or cared. Its not a good feeling.
Saturday, April 28, 2007
Sunday, April 08, 2007
The One You Love
I know you need a friend, someone you can talk to
Who will understand what you're going through
When it comes to love, there's no easy answer
Only you can say what you're gonna do
I heard you on the phone, you took his number
Said you weren't alone, but you'd call him soon
Isn't he the guy, the guy who left you cryin'?
Isn't he the one who made you blue?
When you remember those nights in his arms
You know you gotta make up your mind
Are you gonna stay with the one who loves you
Or are you goin' back to the one you love?
Someone's gonna cry when they know they've lost you
Someone's gonna thank the stars above
What you gonna say when he comes over?
There's no easy way to see this through
All the broken dreams, all the disappointment
Oh girl, what you gonna do?
Your heart keeps sayin' it's just not fair
But still you gotta make up your mind
Are you gonna stay with the one who loves you
Or are you goin' back to the one you love?
Someone's gonna cry when they know they've lost you
Someone's gonna thank the stars above
Who will understand what you're going through
When it comes to love, there's no easy answer
Only you can say what you're gonna do
I heard you on the phone, you took his number
Said you weren't alone, but you'd call him soon
Isn't he the guy, the guy who left you cryin'?
Isn't he the one who made you blue?
When you remember those nights in his arms
You know you gotta make up your mind
Are you gonna stay with the one who loves you
Or are you goin' back to the one you love?
Someone's gonna cry when they know they've lost you
Someone's gonna thank the stars above
What you gonna say when he comes over?
There's no easy way to see this through
All the broken dreams, all the disappointment
Oh girl, what you gonna do?
Your heart keeps sayin' it's just not fair
But still you gotta make up your mind
Are you gonna stay with the one who loves you
Or are you goin' back to the one you love?
Someone's gonna cry when they know they've lost you
Someone's gonna thank the stars above
Thursday, April 05, 2007
April
Its time for my monthly update of this blog. This could probably be the last month that i will get to stay out as my current unit will be undergoing some restructuring. After so many months of staying out, the thoughts of booking out Fridays and booking in on Sundays doesn't seem very appealing to me. But, there is no choice, since I am stucked with the army till next year. Did i mention that i just taken up tuition?
Currently, i am teaching a primary school kid tuition. So, hopefully the restructuring would not affect too much on my schedules. This is the first time i am teaching tuition actually. I find it rather interesting. My student is quite cute, always asking me to read stories for her. Telling me what she does, her dreams and wishes.
It makes me think about my childhood days, where everything is so pure and innocent. I find that kids now are much more fortunate than those of my times. When I was young, I never had tuition and it would be my mum spending time giving me practices and revisions to prepare for my tests and exams. As i grow older, I would spend my own time revising on my subjects. But now, parents would afford getting tuition for kids are very young ages like Primary 1 or even in the kinder garden stage. They are so much more lucky.
Although i am not earning much through this extra job, but it makes my life more meaningful. Its more about achievement and satisfaction. I am happy that she did rather well for her CA1, which i spent some long hours teaching her the subjects. I hope, I can help her do better for her later examinations too!
The past few weeks have been rather packed for me. Besides army, I managed to meet up with my friends. We had a dinner with Jonny before he left for his national service. Though I must say I do not find it a wise decision to spend 3 years of my life to serve my NS. Yet, I respect him for his faith towards his religion. I hope we will meet up again after 3 years and i wish him all the best.
On the coming Monday, I will be going to Tekong again. Its been a long time since i step back to that island. This time, i will be sending 2 guys from my unit for BMT recourse. Reminiscence of my BMTC days..
Currently, i am teaching a primary school kid tuition. So, hopefully the restructuring would not affect too much on my schedules. This is the first time i am teaching tuition actually. I find it rather interesting. My student is quite cute, always asking me to read stories for her. Telling me what she does, her dreams and wishes.
It makes me think about my childhood days, where everything is so pure and innocent. I find that kids now are much more fortunate than those of my times. When I was young, I never had tuition and it would be my mum spending time giving me practices and revisions to prepare for my tests and exams. As i grow older, I would spend my own time revising on my subjects. But now, parents would afford getting tuition for kids are very young ages like Primary 1 or even in the kinder garden stage. They are so much more lucky.
Although i am not earning much through this extra job, but it makes my life more meaningful. Its more about achievement and satisfaction. I am happy that she did rather well for her CA1, which i spent some long hours teaching her the subjects. I hope, I can help her do better for her later examinations too!
The past few weeks have been rather packed for me. Besides army, I managed to meet up with my friends. We had a dinner with Jonny before he left for his national service. Though I must say I do not find it a wise decision to spend 3 years of my life to serve my NS. Yet, I respect him for his faith towards his religion. I hope we will meet up again after 3 years and i wish him all the best.
On the coming Monday, I will be going to Tekong again. Its been a long time since i step back to that island. This time, i will be sending 2 guys from my unit for BMT recourse. Reminiscence of my BMTC days..
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